Home For Summer

I can’t believe I’m already home from college. This past school year flew by so fast, but I guess it’s better than it dragging on and on. I just finished taking my finals and I’m hoping I passed them all. Ahaha my art history one was a killer. I really hope I passed that class. Otherwise, I have to retake it because it’s within my major. Any ways, my family came to pick me up on Wednesday, and we filled the van with all my stuff. I can’t believe I have so much stuff, it’s crazy. Currently I am in my room and I’m unpacking everything. My room looks like a tornado came through; there’s stuff everywhere. I love being home though, in my own room with my pink walls and music playing; although, I do miss my roommate dearly. I’m sure I’ll be seeing her over the summer. Speaking of summer, I can’t wait for it. In about one more month it will truly be summer and not spring. All my friends will be home and we can frolic around in the sun. We have made amazing plans for the summer of 09 and I can’t wait to start them. I have four months to enjoy myself before starting my junior year. And I’m gonna make them some of the best four months of my life. I’m determined. I have a good feeling about this summer. I think a lot of good things are going to happen, and I’m ever so ready for them to happen.

Things That Are Old

I have come to realize that many things come and go. You have to learn how to let go, therefore leaving it behind. It's definitely a hard thing to do, and sometimes I fail big time.

One thing I can't seem to let go of is my black cardigan. I love wearing black cardigans, for some odd reason, don't ask. ahha My first black cardigan has been with me for about 4 years. It now has holes in it and is somewhat smaller than it used to be. I recently bought a new one to replace it, but I never threw the old one away. I mainly wear the new one but occasionaly I still wear the old one. It's almost like it's a comfort blanket, as stupid as that sounds. To be honest, I have many memories in that cardigan and maybe that's why I can't let it go. Maybe that's why I can't let a lot of things go. Memories.

I hold them close to my heart and to me they mean a lot. I can always go back to memories, no matter where I am in my life. They remind me of something that once was, and kinda of lets me relive my past. I like having that ability, even if it may be painful or hurtful. Reliving memories can also be uplifting, happy, and innocent.

So in the end the question still remains, why it's so hard to let go of something so old? And the only reason I can come up with is memories.

Things I Hate

The other day I was having a not so good day. I decided to write about it on my friends wall on facebook. Here is what I said:


"so have I told you how much I hate rainy days, pants that soak up the rain, having homework to do, having art projects that aren't finished due the next day and people who use me for my answers and supplies....well yeah I hate all those things ahahhaha what a day

oh and another thing I hate, not being able to go on the Gateway Clipper Cruise b/c of stupid night class.....

oh and one last thing, having a math quiz and not knowing wtf i'm doing b/c i wasn't there on thursday b/c i was in DC ugghh

and now i walked into my project and it broke which is fine b/c it can easily go back together but i don't remember how it was to put it back together......"

and in response I got:


"things that i hate:
-being low on meal points
-being stuck in the rain with no hood
-my roommate
-the fact that i just drank like 600 calories in milk
-writing an awful paper
-having a 10 am tomorrow morning"

then my other friend saw our wall to wall conversation and decided to join in on the hating....so then she wrote on my wall:


"Things that I hate:
1. Scheduling my classes.
2. When one of my contacts gets dry and I don't have eye drops.
3. Writing speeches.
4. Clothes that smell when they get wet in the rain.
5. When it's below fifty degrees in April.
6. Farming giant bales of bear fluff.
7. Stupid people."


I never expected for my friends to answer back like that and the fact that they did, made me realize that everybody has bad days. I loved that we all found things to hate on a particular day. And I also love the fact that no one had to ask anything, it was all implied. And the fact that we can just play off eachothers conversations like that reminds me how good of friends we all are and I never want to lose that.

Waiting For Time To Pass

It is approximately 3:30 am and I am still up. Reason being, I have to wake up (or stay up till) 4:45, in order to be ready by 5:20. If you're wondering where I'm going, it would be a place called Washington, DC. My 3d art class is taking a field trip (if that's what you want to call it) and frankly, I'm pretty excited. We are going to be visiting art museums and just enjoying the atmosphere of DC. It's been awhile since I've been to DC. My family used to live in Maryland, so we would be in DC quite a lot, but then we moved to PA. The last time we were there, it was when I was really young so I don't remember that much. I have my vague memories that I will never forget, but I'd like to make new ones, that are clearer. It is supposed to be a beautiful day, with the sun shining which makes it even better. Especially since it's been raining the past several days. I love my sunshine; it always makes me extra happy.

I have about one more hour to kill before I need to get ready and it would be really nice if I could go somewhere and get food. I'm so hungry. There are animal crackers next to me, but I've been snacking on them all day, I'm so over them. I guess I'll just wait to eat tomorrow on the bus, that is after I sleep. I think I'm just gonna crash as soon as I get on the bus. Supposedly, it takes 4 hours to get there, so I guess 4 hours of sleep is better than none. I could lay down now, which I still might, but I fear that if I fall asleep I won't be able to wake up on time....so I'd rather just stay up. ahahah

Last Two Weeks of the Semester

So today I had to schedule my classes for Fall 2009 aka my junior year. First, let me say that I can't believe I am a junior in college, yes college! Where has the time gone??

Anyways, scheduling is like this whole procedure and to be honest it's a bitch. You have to wake up and be ready to schedule at 7 am, therefore I like to wake up at 6:30 am so I can be awake and comprehend what i'm doing. So you have to log in and type in the numbers and pray that it goes through and you get the classes you wanted. I've actually always had good luck with scheduling, so I guess I'm considered lucky.

The schedule that I have chosen isn't too exciting and I'm not too thrilled with it. I am pretty sure I will end up changing it soon, but for right now it is what it is. The only classes I'm excited for would be GD 1 and Graphic Comm Process 1. Other than that, it's not gonna be a fun time.

On a happier note, I only have two weeks of this semster left!!! I'm so excited and sooo ready for summer. I want to play in the sun and spend as much time possible with my friends. I want to be free and do what I want. So hopefully these last two weeks won't be to bad and summer will be here soon!!

Procrastination at it's Best

So right now I should be writing my 5 page art history paper, that's due tomorrow, on Pliny the Younger and the Eruption of Mt. Vesuvius, but I'm distracted as always. I figure what's another 15 minutes of procrastination going to hurt? Nothing.

I keep logging onto facebook and myspace; I swear it's an addiction. And so many thoughts keep running through my head; all the thoughts that shouldn't be there, but I can't help myself. That's all I ever do anymore, think about why things are the way they are, and if there is any way to change them. I keep saying "maybe" and I keep hoping, wanting, wishing, and dreaming, but it never helps. It only makes it worse.

I have music playing in my ear as always; music is another addiction of mine. I like can't live without it, which sounds kind of pathetic, but trust me it's not. And when a good song comes on that I love I sing along, therfore distracting me from what I'm supposed to be doing, like writing this damn paper.

Procrastination is like the devil!! It gets me everytime.....and yet I still fall for it. At times, I think procrastinating makes me work harder and more efficent but not all the time. So, I guess I should stop typing and go finish my paper.